It doesn't seem that long ago that I was finishing my LLL certification.
Today is the first Tuesday of the month, thus it is meeting time. Every month I almost forget to go. Every month I am at least ten minutes late.
It's been on my mind for a long time that I'm not living the LLL lifestyle anymore. Since I got divorced, since I weaned, since I started sending a child under 2 away every weekend, these are things that are not compatible with the LLL way as most people within the organization see it. There are many things about LLL that I love, but there are many more things that annoy me. The fact that we have a healthy membership but no leader prospects speaks to the inflexibility of the organization to accept lifestyles divergent from the 50's style nuclear mold.
I stuck with it for a long time because I love the new moms. I love the new babies. I love the excitement of the group when I say something that resonates with them, that perhaps they hadn't thought of before. I love the women who come back month after month, bringing their babies that grow into toddlers before my eyes.
I decided during today's meeting that I was going to be done. When I brought it up with another group leader, we decided that before my official retirement I'd get Jo through her last stages toward certification and I'd lead one more meeting. The meeting is April Fool's Day (ha!!) and the topic will be Myths and Truths about breastfeeding. We meet at Essene Natural Foods at 4th and Bainbridge at 10 am, and if you want to stop by and introduce yourself, or just spy on me, that would be awesome.
It would also be awesome if you'd like to leave some myths (funny, damaging, benign, weird, or whatever) you've encountered about breastfeeding in the comments. Help me make my last meeting a good one.
I'm still going to be an advocate of breastfeeding, I'll still help any mother who needs it, I'll still smile whenever I see a mother whipping it out in public, and I'll feel a little wistful that I no longer can use that method of shocking people.