In the midst of the holidays I am not writing much. Not even to myself.
There has been a spate of blog shut-downs recently. This makes me sad, important voices have been withdrawn, archives have been removed. But, I get it. I've considered it myself. Sometimes blogging can be a chore, sometimes Real Life needs to take precedence over this transluscent unreal online world we've created.
I am not going anywhere. I have been here two years as of Christmas (it was my gift to myself in 2004, and it felt so subversive and decadent at the time) and my blog is as a part of me right now as my hands. I could not give it up. I appreciate each and every one of my readers, those I've heard from and those I haven't. I love you all. This blog has been instrumental in my transformation over the last two years, taking me from a timid underconfident housewife to someone who can begin to believe in myself.
I have spruced up my old blog for new content. I'm calling it LoveBlog. See, I have these many thoughts about the nature and meaning of love, lust and infatuation, and how it pertains to my utter failure at being a wife and how I'm approaching life as a singular person.
I have had many thoughts about monogamy and why I think I'll never be truly monogamous again, but hesitate to post them here because, 1. my mom reads this blog, 2. Josh might read it, and 3. I will most definitley offend some of my beloved readers who come here for birthmother/mommy content and aren't look for a bitter critique of their lifestyle (emphasis on the bitter).
I will keep the other blog open for anyone unless I mention someone specifically, and then it will be friends only. So, no need for livejournal snobbery (Jul, I'm looking at you). I need the safety of password protection for some things. I love writing publicly (I am like a cat who sidles up for stroking) but some things cannot be truly public and remain ethical. For my privacy and others'. Also, there is a tremendous vulnerability in writing about love, and I intend LoveBlog to be a hater-free zone. With the content on here I can handle the haters, but I'm a little too raw to handle haters over there. Also, don't expect much frequency of posting.
Happy New Year, everyone. And thanks for reading.