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Wednesday, January 05, 2005



Both Hearthsong and Magic Cabin have knitting kits, some of them for younger children. Follow the menus under crafts or do a search under "knit." Maybe you could visit their websites, do a coupon search for savings, and buy something now, so there's no rush? December/January meetings and birthdays must be especially hectic, never mind all the other stuff at stake.


I just wanted to tell you that your story breaks my heart into a million pieces. I can not even begin to fathom the pain you feel inside from the loss of your daughter. I dont know If I am right and I havent seen it said here in your blog or maybe I just missed it but from what I read is that you truly regret placing her with another family. I just cant imagine what you are feeling. I just wanted to tell you from the bottom of my heart that I am truly sorry. I hope one day and it might not be til she is a grown woman that you can come to have a relationship with you and she will see you for the awesome woman you are and that you did this for her. Even though it would cause you endless pain you did it for her. That is love. Dont let anyone tell you different.


Well... since the two other commenters commented long after the post, I will too :)
I am slowly working my way through, reading all of your posts, because I learn so much from your blog, as I've said before, and if not (here in the comments) you can check #24 of my "100 things list" (Aug 10/05):
"24. I learned from Kateri (Wet Feet) a bit (just the tip of the iceberg, I’m sure) of what being a birth-mother feels like."

Anyway, I agree with Lisa, I feel for you everytime I read. How lovely of Jody to share how you can buy a knitting kit. I hope you're able to do it for next year :)

So, I just read about the Waldorf school in the latest Phillymag. If that's the one Ellie goes to - wow. They are *rich*!

Next year I'll think of you on Jan. 5.


"Errata": Never mind about the very last sentence in the previous comment. My memory is very bad, especially late at night :) The article in Phillymag is about the Montessori school...


Thank you for writing this blog. I'm sure it has helped you, but I can tell you it helps me, too. So it makes a difference.
Other commentator's leave notes saying "I can't imagine the pain you feel".
Unfortunately, I'm writing to say I know almost exactly how you feel.
It hurts, doesn't it? Every day.
I miss my baby.

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